Entry for September 19, 2007
Yesturday was tough! From the time we got home from school Ryan was on & off fussy. He would sleep about 5-10mins, then start screaming. That went on all night long. By the time it was time for bed I was an emotional reck! Thank God for Big Eric! He took Ryan from me & went with him to the room. I tried to relax & watched a little tv. I just cried. Its so hard to see him like that. I get upset then feel guilty because I know its not his fault & he cant tell me whats wrong.
When I got to bed he was finally sleeping. He slept till about 3am, then the crying began. After a while of thinking about all thats been going on with him, I think we found whats wrong...his tummy hurts & he's probably constipated. The wierd thing is, he is pooping...its just a little & what comes out is watery. I think he's backed up. Not only that this morning some dark stuff came out of his g-tube when we vented. In times past when that happened he was extrememly fussy. Also, everytime he feeds he gets even more fussy. For example, say he's asleep & we start the feeding. Within a few minutes hes screaming. We turn it off & few minutes later he calms down & goes back to sleep. If we start it again, the same thing happens. The last couple of nights he hasnt had his full night time feeding because its not letting him sleep.
The nurse from the GI clinic called to give me the official results from the upper gi series, it has slipped. The next corse is surgery, but the dr is leaving that up to us. I told the nurse that he really hadnt been throwing up anymore & began to explain the new problem. Its like one problem gets replaced with anyother! She told me she would tell the dr & get back to me before the end of the day, its 5pm & still no call!
I am glad to say Ryan has clamed down.
But he is feeding right now & whinning a little, but not as bad as this morning or last night. I guess you can tell, we didnt go to school. Eric let me sleep in & had Ryan with him in the livingroom, today was his day off.
After I got up, Eric we to get his hair cut then we went to pick up some of Ryan's supplies. Ryan was pretty relaxed. Then we went to get angels wings, I need them for a show Im working on right now in dance & then we went to eat.
I caught up on alot of sleep but still feel tired, I guess thats just the way it is, right?
